So four months and 14 days into the new year, I'm making good on my first resolution: loose weight (more accurately: loose fat).
For those of you who don't know (I don't seem to be very good at telling people this), yesterday was my birthday. I got an Amazon gift card from one of my dearest friends and for one of the first times ever: I spent it!
Little side note: I am a hoarder. I absolutely hoard money; spending it on anything is like pulling teeth for me - I stress out, worry, etc. It's gotten better, but still kinda ridiculous.
I bought Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred. I'm not even going to lie: I'm pretty much terrified. I did a lot of research and looked at several different programs, including DVDs and games for our Wii, but all signs drew me to this.
I've never really done a program like this before. I fell into riding, almost on accident it seemed, so it wasn't a conscious decision. I ran with my dad for a little while (meaning <two months), but then I got shin splints and decided I hated it. Any attempt other than those two, which really stick out to me, have been half-hearted, on-my-own, work-out-when-I-don't-have-anything-else-to-do type things.
This is a commitment. It's a commitment to myself and to my body. I got it because I decided that I really need something that will absolutely kick me in the butt/shins/wherever I need it to in order to get me going.
I decided that I'm tired of this. I'm tired of feeling out of shape and gross and whatever other emotion I feel when I look at my body. I don't want to have to look at pictures of myself and end up comparing myself to the other people in the photograph. So, I figured if I'm going to learn how to swim, why not start in the deep end?
The sucky part about this is that it's not as scheduled like classes or something and I don't have someone else depending on me/doing it with me. Still, next year is my senior year and I want it to be the best yet. It probably won't be my favorite year class-wise, but I want to take it head-on and feeling confident. I want to save up some money this summer so that I can go out and buy a bunch of new clothes right before school starts, so we'll see where that goes.
I'm legitimately excited for this. I want to see how it turns out and if I can actually follow through with it. Plus, who doesn't want to look like Jillian Michaels? She's a total badass. ;)
I'll probably be posting a lot more over the next 30 days with my progress and such. Stay tuned--if it really works, maybe I'll even be confident enough to post pictures!