There is no doubt in my mind that 2012 is going to be a big year. I graduate high school, start college, leave my family, turn 18, and hopefully continue to grow and change as a person. I'm excited, I really am, but as I grow more and more, I realize that change can be really hard for me. I'm definitely a creature of habit, and I like my routines, but something about the thought of things changing just...jumbles me up inside, if that makes sense.
Lately, the "starting college" part has been freaking me out. A lot. All during break, I rushed to get applications in (I'm still not done) because I don't feel like I'm ready. I've been accepted to my dream school, but it's a private school and I'm really having a hard time with that aspect of it. My family isn't monetarily rich and as much as I want and would love to go to my first choice, I'm not sure that I'm ready to start my adult life in debt. That being said, I'm also struggling to commit to UNC or UNC-A, which are my fallbacks. UNC is scaring me off because of its size and UNC-A just doesn't feel right.
I know, that no matter what, as long as I listen to my instincts and follow my gut, that everything will work out exactly as it needs to. I'm in the running for a full-tuition scholarship, after already having received a generous scholarship, from my dream school; I should find out in this month! Keep your fingers crossed for me, please. (: I'm hoping FAFSA will help some and like I said...I know it will work out.
I haven't sat down and done my list of resolutions yet, but that's next on the hit parade (just kidding, it's probably not likely to happen). One of them will be getting this blog back up and going though. I have these great days, or inspirational days, and just...need to type, need to share; when I bottle all of that stuff up, words just like...start jumping out of my head--not kidding. (: When I start college, this will probably turn into a way to chronicle my adventures and keep my family and friends updated. ...I can't wait.
So excited, so ready.